hippigirl

Just another day

2006-11-14T08:36:00.000-08:00

man this month is just flying by . Where does the time go. I've been keeping very busy. I'm looking for a part time job. The real estate is going ok But we are trying to buy a house and the holidays are coming so I've got to do what I've got to do.
Tony started his own blog yesterday check it out http://wakingupfromacoma.blogspot.com/ I'm very proud of him.
I've got to go It's my day off and I've got more to do than I would if I were working.

Taking a moment to catch up.

2006-10-30T19:57:00.000-08:00

Well, I have been very neglectfull in keeping up with my blog. At one time I couldn't wait to get to my computer and post on my blog and check out all my favorite people. I miss my blog friends and it's my own fault. So I'm going to try to do better.
My life got real crazy for a while this summer with almost losing my son , Mom having cancer , my Aunt having by-pass surgery trying to start career ,my husband who is working himself to death, taking care of a home ,having my son move back home and trying to find time to take a bath.I'm really not trying to whine or seek symphathy.I'm just wondering why I'm not in a nut house by now.With all this stuff going on I got to experiance many wonderful things.My son coming back from the dead and learning how to do everything over again was like having a child and watching him grow up in a matter of months, from his first goofy smile ,to his first steps ,to going to bathroom ,to reading and writing, to making his bed ,to girls, and to starting a whole life over again.
Mending years of hurt feelings and anger between my ex-inlaws and establishing a relationship of caring and respect.
Watching my Mom go thru cancer treatment was hell ,But realizing I come from a strong and amazing woman and hoping I will someday be half the woman she is.
Watching life slowly come back into a woman who's body was falling apart but her heart would never give up.And knowing how much I'm going to miss her when she moves.Even if it is only 15 miles away.I won't be able to look out my front door and see my uncle working in the yard and my aunt cooking something good to eat.
I've learned to appricate the man I love even when he's not very lovable.He works so hard . I hope to be able to bear some of the burden and give him a break.
I'm working hard at something I never thought I could.I am learning to be good a something new.
I am also being the Mom I should have been 18 years ago and it makes me feel good about what I am adding to his life.

So All in all you have to take the good with the bad.And it is so true that behind every bad thing in our lives there is something good.
My new saying that got me thru this time was"Expect nothing but have faith in everything"

I Believe in Miracles

2006-07-16T05:22:00.000-07:00

Last Sat. I got a call from one of my youngest sons "friends" . "Mamma Sandi Tony was partin' last night and passed out about 3 am and we can't get himto wake up, I think you should get here ". This was the next night he had been out for a long time. I got there and sure enough I couldn't wake him either. So I took him the hospital, he quit breathing as the nurses where wheeling him into the ER. They had to put him on the ventilator. He didn'tstart coming around for days. We watched and prayed and asked everyone we knew to pray. The Doctors told us there wasn't much hope , that even if he did wake up he would be a vegetable he had major brain trauma ,damage to the heart ,liver and he suffered a stroke that would leave his right side useless.Well Fri. he started coming around slowly. I got a little glimmer of hope!At about 3 pm the nurse called for me to come back to his room. There sat my son with all the support systems gone and he is smiling at me And he recognized me. By the end of the night I was receiving little kisses from my boy.As of Sat. he was moving both arms and legs and was talking in complete sentences.I finally came home to rest . I am looking forward to going back to the hospital and seeing his bright blues eyes today. I know if it wasn't for the prayers and love that was sent out for that boy I would never have been able to those beautiful eyes smile back to me!I truly witnessed a miracle.And I thank God for that.Please keep him in your prayers THEY ARE WORKING. We still have a long road ahead of us but I am comforted in knowing we are not walking alone.

The big C

2006-05-09T14:19:00.000-07:00

How do you talk about something so terrifying you can't hardly say the word??? A close member of my family is facing it now. My mom, the strongest woman I know is facing our worst fears. I hear a tenor in her voice as the fear seep thru, I see the anxiety taking it's toll. And I feel helpless.

FOR BILL see next post too!

2006-04-30T21:04:00.000-07:00

Shelly and family
Our little cabin in the woods!
Our tornado alert system. LOL just kidding I had to throw that one in there!

This is for my Uncle Billie who I haven't seen since we were kids!!

2006-04-30T21:01:00.000-07:00

My kids
My baby
My Hubby
MOM

Pictures for Grandma and Grandpa

2006-04-29T18:32:00.000-07:00

I hope no one gets sick of pictures, this is my way of passing them around to family. So here they are Mom. Doesn't it just take your breath away!!

2006-04-27T11:57:00.000-07:00

Oh my Goodness he is growing soooo fast. I just can't stand it. I miss them so much . Chris got a new Harley pictures will be posted later!

Hello hello hello......

2006-04-19T07:13:00.000-07:00

The rush of spring has taken me away. There is so much to do, everyday. I'm finally going to make time to get caught up with everyone.
I saw my first hummingbird yesterday ! Actually I have two on my porch. Last year we started off with three and ended up with nine I think they had babies , so it will be fun to see what we end up with.
There are so many things going on . I wish I could get into it but I can't right now. All I know is I hope things slow down just a bit.Every once in a while I have to just tell myself" breath in , breath out."
Hope all of you are having a good time and life is treating you all well. Later!!!

A moving story

2006-03-09T06:56:00.000-08:00

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning disabled > >children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that > >would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the > >school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question:> >> >"When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does> > >is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other> > >children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is> > >the natural order of things in my son?"> >> >The audience was stilled by the query.> >> >The father continued. "I believe, that when a child like Shay, > >physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an > >opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes,> > >in the way other people treat that child. Then he told the following> story:> >> >Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew > >were playing baseball. Shay asked,Do you think they'll let me play?" > >Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like > >Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were> > >allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and> > >some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.> >> >Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked if Shay> > >could play, not expecting much. The boy looked around for guidance and > >said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I> > >guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the > >ninth inning."> >> >Shay struggled over to the team's bench put on a team shirt with a > >broad smile and his Father had a small tear in his eye and warmth in> his heart.> >The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom > >of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still > >behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove > >and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was> > >obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning > >from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the > >bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again. Now, with two > >outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and > >Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.> >> >At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to > >win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that > >a hit was all but impossible 'cause Shay didn't even know how to hold > >the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.> >> >However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing the > >other team putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved > >in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least be able> > >to make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and > >missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball > >softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and > >hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.> >> >The game would now be over, but the pitcher picked up the soft grounder> > >and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would > >have been out and that would have been the end of the game.> >> >Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the head of the first > >baseman, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and > >both teams started yelling, "Shay, run to first! Run to first!" Never > >in his life had Shay ever ran that far but made it to first base. He > >scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.> >> >Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!"> >Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and > >struggling to make it to second base. By the time Shay rounded towards > >second base, the right fielder had the ball, the smallest guy on their > >team, who had a chance to be the hero for his team for the first time. > >He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he> > >understood the pitcher's intentions and he too intentionally threw the > >ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third > >base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward> home.> >> >All were screaming, "Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay"> >> >Shay reached third base, the opposing shortstop ran to help him and > >turned him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third! > >Shay, run to third" As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams and> > >those watching were on their feet were screaming, "Shay, run home! Shay> > >ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit > >the "grand slam" and won the game for his team.> >> >That day, said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, > >the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity> > >into this world.> >> >Shay didn't make it to another summer and died that winter, having > >never forgotten being the hero and making his Father so happy and > >coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of> the day!> >> >AND, NOW A LITTLE FOOTNOTE TO THIS STORY: We all send thousands of > >jokes through the e-mail without a second thought, but when it comes to> > >sending messages about life choices, people think twice about sharing. > >The crude, vulgar, and often obscene pass freely through cyberspace, > >but public discussion about decency is too often suppressed in our > >schools and workplaces.> >> >If you're thinking about forwarding this message, chances are that > >you're probably sorting out the people on your address list that aren't> > >the "appropriate" ones to receive this type of message. Well, the > >person who sent you this believes that we all can make a difference. We> > >all have thousands of opportunities every single day to help realize > >the "natural order of things." So many seemingly trivial interactions > >between two people present us with a choice: Do we pass along a little > >spark of love and humanity or do we pass up that opportunity to > >brighten the day of those with us the least able, and leave the world a> > >little bit colder in the process?> >> >A wise man once said every society is judged by how it treats it's > >least fortunate amongst them.> >> > >May your day, be a Shay Day, sunny today tomorrow & always!> > > > > >Someone e-mailed this to me and I thought it a cool story,, I hope you like it.

It's Friday already!!!!

2006-03-03T14:20:00.000-08:00

Boy was I ready for today! I still have to work both jobs today and work tomorrow night, but I'm still glad it's friday. This has been a long week. The weather here has been perfect! The birds are doing their little bird thing and I've even seen daffodils blooming. And I was stuck in the office all week.I shouldn't complain I'm lucky to have a job .Still I'm glad it's friday.
I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. I'm going to try to get the hubby to break out the scooter this weekend and see if I can blow some of the stink off. Peace!!!!

Cutest Grandbaby

2006-03-01T05:57:00.000-08:00

You knew I couldn't go to long without posting more pictures of the cutest baby in the world!!!!!!!

Can you tell I'm bored today, see previous postings

2006-02-28T10:57:00.001-08:00

I'm sitting at work bored, avoiding posting about anything that is of value.So I'm just playing.
I was feeling very positive and upbeat last week and then some things happened over the weekend to hurt my feelings and my heart.It invovled being nice and tring to help someone out only to be shit on .
Well I will not let it get me down.I will not lose faith in people and I will continue to be who I am.I just have to believe that the loss of my friendship is their loss.And it's better to see true colors before getting any more involved than I did.
It really helped receiving a card in the mail from my friend Sande,thank you sweetie for your wonderful words and your perfect timing.
Now I think I'm going to go back to playing around a little , I love the little chuckles I find out here in blogland.
Have a wonderful week everyone, Peace

2006-02-28T10:57:00.000-08:00

Your Personality Is

Idealist (NF)
You are a passionate, caring, and unique person.You are good at expressing yourself and sharing your ideals.
You are the most compassionate of all types and connect with others easily.Your heart tends to rule you. You can't make decisions without considering feelings.
You seek out other empathetic people to befriend.Truth and authenticity matters in your friendships.
In love, you give everything you have to relationships. You fall in love easily.
At work, you crave personal expression and meaning in your career.
With others, you communicate well. You can spend all night talking with someone.
As far as your looks go, you've likely taken the time to develop your own personal style.
On weekends, you like to be with others. Charity work is also a favorite pastime of yours.

The Three Question Personality Test

2006-02-28T10:29:00.000-08:00

You Are 50% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

2006-02-28T10:16:00.000-08:00

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.Your friends tend to be a as quirky as you are - which is saying a lot!You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

2006-02-28T10:13:00.000-08:00

What Your Underwear Says About You

You like to think of yourself as innocent, even though you're not!
You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone.

The Underwear Oracle

2006-02-28T09:51:00.000-08:00

Your Pimp Name Is...

Bootylicious Trickz

What's" Your Pimp Name?

2006-02-28T09:49:00.000-08:00

Your Elf Name Is...

Spicy Hot Chocolate

What's" Your Elf Name?

It's Friday !!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-24T10:59:00.000-08:00

I love Fridays! This Friday reminds me of a Dr. Hook song "You make my pants want to get up and dance, you make my face want to grin. You make my knees want to do as they please Honey won't you kiss me again"
Anyhow I'm tring to keep up with the posting since I've been so bad . But I'm on the run working both jobs today. I might slow down by sunday.......
Have a wonderful weekend everybody.

Staying in the saddle.....

2006-02-22T10:28:00.000-08:00

Today feels like a happy "I'm back in the saddle " kind of day. I feel real good. Someone is sending some good stuff my way. It was nice to hear from everyone as well. I hope this is contagious and all of you get it too. Have a wonderful day.

Ok I'll confess... I'm a secret agent!!!

2006-02-21T08:01:00.000-08:00

Oh no wait a min. I'm a Real Estate agent. Yes I finally passed my test now I'm just waiting for my license. Life has been moving so fast for us since the first of the year.
When they say good things come to those who wait , they aren't kidding . It seems like I was waiting and waiting and waiting then all of a sudden all heck broke lose.And it's all good!!
1. My husband and I started our own Electrical bus. He is still working full time over in Ark. and we are doing this after hours and on the weekends. Our first contract was a Non-profit org. Dental clinic. Almost have that one finished .
2. I studied and worked hard to pass the state and national test for my Real-estate stuff. I really am proud of myself. It took long enough but the hard part is over. I can't wait to really start working as an agent.
3. I picked up a job 3- 4 nights a week at a new supper club a real nice place with exellent food. I've appied for a management position, we'll see....
4. We are working on trying to buy our place out here.......
5.I finally got my woodstove hooked up theis weekend ... I love wood heat. It feels soooo good!!!!

I am really going to put some effort into getting caught up with everyone in blog I do miss my friends. And I'm way overdue LOve you guys!!!!!!!!

Linda this one is for you

2005-12-21T11:25:00.000-08:00

I know I have been posting picture more instead of writting but I have a lot of family popping in and I want to share pictures. OK OK I'll admit it I've been lazy! I'm just getting thru the holidays and I will be better. I've got some new projects going on and old ones I'm tring to finish(walking sticks).So I've been keeping busy
This is a picture of my hubby and me I invited Allens sister over here to check out pictures and I wanted her to see how hansome her brother is. We both look a little worn out but thats what grandkids will do to you!!!!
I hope everyone is having a good week ! I'll post more when things get caught up Ha ha ha .....

He is sooo smart

2005-12-17T21:13:00.000-08:00

My baby with his baby

2005-12-17T21:08:00.000-08:00

Babies are snuggly

There is nothing like a sleeping baby in your arms

2005-12-17T21:04:00.000-08:00

This is one happy Gammie, Love them snuggles!!!!!

This boy is just too cool !

2005-12-17T06:03:00.000-08:00

Everyone got here safe and sound we are having our holiday celabrations a week early. I've got lots more pictures of this little tike . He has been such a joy. He is one of the happiest babies I've seen. He's just like his father, Having them here has lifted my funk. I didn't want to admit it but I really don't like xmas. It's always been a stressful time of year for me it seems like it falls at the worst time why can't we have xmas in the summer.Anyhow just having my family here is all I could ever ask for .Just because I can't give or do like I'd like to doesn't mean I have to do it all on one day I can give all year long when I have more to share.I know I've got pelnty of kisses to shower this sweet baby with. I hope you all are enjoying your holidays and I will try to post more often now that I'm out of my little funk.

2005-12-12T06:41:00.000-08:00

hippigirl

2005-12-07T17:00:00.000-08:00

You are the Empress card. The Empress is the
archetype of the Mother. She creates and
nurtures life. She represents the abundance of
Mother Earth. The Empress is capable of using
nature in a productive way. She espouses art
for art's sake. Her planet is Venus, and she
embodies love of beauty and a strong value
system. Here is also found initial sensation.
This is the first really physical experience of
the world that The Fool has entered. The
Empress has a rich understanding of the world
based on her five senses. In a reading, The
Empress represents pregnancy, actual or
metaphorical. She indicates an act of creation
and a sensual experience of beauty. The Empress
is a nurturing force that wishes to see the
product of her experiences reach the next stage
of development. Image from A Photographic Tarot
http://www.bluewitch.com/healingtarot/healtar.htm
Deck

Which Tarot Card Are You?
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purses

2005-12-05T10:05:00.000-08:00

I'm finding ways to keep busy and make extra money. I've also been making them for xmas presents.Hey it keeps me busy.

Xmas projects

2005-12-05T10:01:00.000-08:00

Now taking orders 25.00 for the set this includes shipping.

Xmas presents I made for my nieces

2005-12-05T09:58:00.000-08:00

More pic of my little sweetie

2005-12-05T09:49:00.000-08:00

2005-11-28T14:23:00.000-08:00

This is my Navy boy

2005-11-24T21:38:00.000-08:00

I really shouldn't call him a boy he has grown into a fine man. This is at his graduation from bootcamp, I have never been more proud of him than I was that day. I was filled with mixed emotions , my son was no longer my baby he was a man. Now we all know he will always be my baby but now I have a deeper respect for him as a man , a father, a husband and a son. I love you Chris. I know you'll be checking in and I want you to know dispite my crazy life when you where growing up , you have turned out pretty damm good!!!!!

My little boy

2005-11-24T01:32:00.000-08:00

Twas' the night before Thanksgiving

2005-11-23T08:27:00.000-08:00

'TWAS THE NIGHT OF THANKSGIVING, BUT I JUST COULDN'T SLEEP,I TRIED COUNTING BACKWARDS, I TRIED COUNTING SHEEP.THE LEFTOVERS BECKONED - THE DARK MEAT AND WHITE,BUT I FOUGHT THE TEMPTATION WITH ALL OF MY MIGHT.TOSSING AND TURNING IN ANTICIPATION,THE THOUGHT OF A SNACK BECAME INFATUATION.SO I RACED TO THE KITCHEN, FLUNG OPEN THE DOOR,AND GAZED AT THE FRIDGE FULL OF GOODIES GALORE.I FELT MYSELF SWELLING SO PLUMP AND SO ROUND,'TILL ALL OF A SUDDEN I ROSE OFF THE
GROUND.I CRASHED THROUGH THE CEILING FLOATING INTO THE SKY,WITH A MOUTHFUL OF PUDDING AND A HANDFUL OF PIE.BUT I MANAGED TO YELL AS I SOARED PAST THE TREES,HAPPY EATING TO ALL, PASS THE CRANBERRIES PLEASE.MAY YOUR STUFFING BE TASTY, MAY YOUR TURKEY BE PLUMP,MAY YOUR POTATOES AND GRAVY HAVE NARY A LUMP.MAY YOUR YAMS BE DELICIOUS, MAY YOUR PIES TAKE THE PRIZE,MAY YOUR THANKSGIVING DINNER STAY OFF OF YOUR THIGHS.

Sunday morning

2005-11-20T10:07:00.000-08:00

Me ? sitting here in my favorite jammies,drinking coffee with vanilla caramel creamer, smoking too many cig., listening to Eve Cassiady and I've got my little Sarg. on my lap trying to help me type.I've been thinking about Thanksgiving ,not just making my shopping list for the dinner, I woke up this morning thinking about what I am thankful for. Now that list is long.So this morning I thought I'd post some of those things.
1 I happy to be alive.
2 I'm thankful to be married to a hard working and supportive man.
3 I'm thankful for my children and grandchild.
4 I'm thankful for my family.I could list each one and give a million reasons why for each one.I might do that a nother day. Each one are so special in their own ways.
5 I'm thankful for my home. I never really felt like I had a home of my own. It's not quite ours yet but I do see that in the future.
6 I'm thankful for my friends I don't have many but I value the one that I do have.
7 I'm thankful for my blog friends who I gain so much from.
8 I'm thankful for my health as it is, it could be worst and it could be better with a little effort.
9 I'm thankful for past , I wouldn't be were I'm at today without it. Even with all the ups and downs.
10 I'm thankful for my little dog Sarg. who is a constant companion and a source of much joy and entertainment.
11 I'm thankful for the trials I've had lately , things not happening as fast as I want . It is teaching me paitents.
12 I'm thankful of the rain today, looking out watching the drops fall off the naked limbs of the tree in front of window , it's very peaceful and nurturing.
13 I'm thankful for my mind ,Thankful that I still have one and didn't kill it with all the abuse I've given it.
14 I'm thankful for a place to share this.
15 I'm thankful my son isn't over there in combat , and I pray for those that are.

I think I'll stop here for now I know there are many other things I'm thankful for and I'm going to focus on those things this week. I hope all of you with your busy lives take time to be thankful for the things in your lives this week.

May each of you receive the blessings and love that are coming to you .

quiz time

2005-11-17T19:24:00.000-08:00

I guess I'm into doing these quiz things because they are mindless entertainment. And I find that's what I need right now.Apparently I'm not the only one because I'm finding these on everybody elses blogs. So I don't feel so bad. so here another.

What Famous Leader Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

Your Power Color Is Magenta

At Your Highest:
You energize yourself and push others to suceed.
At Your Lowest:
You feel frustrated and totally overwhelmed.
In Love:
You are suprised by who you attract. You're a love magnet.
How You're Attractive:
Open and free spirited, people want to explore the world with you.
Your Eternal Question:
"What is my next source of inspiration?"

What's" Your Power Color?

2005-11-16T07:02:00.000-08:00

In a Past Life...

You Were: An Obese Fortune Teller.
Where You Lived: Poland.
How You Died: Decapitation.

Who Were You In a Past Life?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Nahoko Imaidegawa

What's" your Japanese Name?

Your Sexy Brazilian Name is:

Larissa Sarahyba

What's" Your Sexy Brazilian Name?

another quizz from btexpress

2005-11-15T18:31:00.000-08:00

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	6.4
Mind:	6
Body:	5.9
Spirit:	6.8
Friends/Family:	7.2
Love:	7.3
Finance:	4.8
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

Full moon madness

2005-11-14T21:05:00.000-08:00

It has hit here at our home. Restlessness, edgy and electrifying. Even my animals are feeling it strongly they are all full of something . I guess that primal tide is pulling on all of us.It's amazing how we are effected by things outside of ourselves. So if anyone else is feeling a little quirky let me know.
Yesterday I saw a Bald Eagle down by the creek , what an awesome bird.And today I saw 2 black squirrels they aren't very common around here. It's really cool what you see living out in the country.Late at night when I step outside I hear all kinds of noises some of them are pretty strange I don't know if I'd want to see what is making some of those noises. Anyhow I hope everyone has a good week and just remember it is a full moon so people are going to be a little stranger the usual.

2005-11-13T08:30:00.000-08:00

This is my Aunt Margie, we were playing around with my cheap ass camera. But she looked so nice I couldn't help but post her!!!!She is one hip chick.

Bloggers block

2005-11-06T23:16:00.000-08:00

I know I haven't been posting much lately but I just don't know what to write about sometimes. There is so much going on and yet nothing.But I was feeling very guilty about not postings so I thought I'd throw something out there.
I have started working on my walking sticks again. I love it! The weather has been awesome for working outside and walking in the woods. I have found some great stuff to work with.
My hubby is finding things to do too. He's been working on the shop this weekend,I think it does him good.
We went up to Aunt Margies for pizza this afternoon. It was nice sitting around talking and enjoying the fine weather we've been having.Thanks Aunt Margie!!!!
Well it is way past my bedtime, I've been getting caught up on everyones blogs and now I'm about crosseyed. I hope everyone has a good week. And maybe I'll get over this blockage and find something to write about. Hug Hug Kiss kiss

I almost feel human again

2005-10-28T18:39:00.000-07:00

Went back to work thurs. and fri. I got to talk to real people and do real work stuff. It was very refreshing. Don't get me wrong I've had my Aunt to talk to and my husband.But I use to be a very social person. So I've decided to start a crafters group. We are going to be called "The Crafty Ladies"We will take turns hosting and the host will present the project of the month . I think it will be a fun way to learn new things. And Like I always say "It will keep me off the streets"I love doing crafts and stuff but I think it will be more fun to do it with others. I make walking sticks and canes. I pick up sticks out in the woods and carve and sand and carve and sand and sometimes it even turns out to look like something cool.
I'm open to suggestions for projects.New ideas. Send them my way.
Tomorrow I 'll be hanging by myself so I think I'm going to gather walnuts.maybe ride the lawnmower down to the creek.
see what kind of trouble I can stir up. I'll fill you all in on all the dirty details tomorrow. Later !!

Happy day !!!!!

2005-10-25T11:34:00.000-07:00

Hey there blog friends, I know my post have not been very chiper lately, but I'm getting better. Life is pretty good and I can get out of a chair without wincing (?). I think I'm going to go mad from bordom sometimes so it's time to "pull up my big girl panties and deal with it". There are plenty of things to do around here.
Time to go I've got to find something to do.....

2005-10-25T08:46:00.000-07:00

He wants to come to Gammy!!

2005-10-25T08:44:00.000-07:00

Newest pictures of Christain, he is just too cute!!!!

In memory of Laura Cakebread

2005-10-23T19:35:00.000-07:00

Sometime during the night around 12:30 am Oct.21 2005 Laura Cakebread Willey Rowe passed over to the beyond to be with so many of her friends and family that passed before her. Finally she found peace from a life that had been both generous and hard for her.She came from a time I could never fully understand, she shared things with me and showed me pictures of a time when life was hard and it made for hard people.She outlived 2 husbands and a few foster children and lefts us with memories to pass on on to our own. My heart is heavy with words left unsaid and grateful for the time shared.There are many things I wish I could say but I can't find the words and I'm afraid no one would understand. But for now all I can say is goodnight Grandma I love you.....

Today's the day .

2005-10-21T08:11:00.000-07:00

I'm going under the knife. I'm a little nervous but it will be OK. My hubby is going to be there and I'll be home this afternoon. I'll be glad to get this over with.
I hope everyone else is doing Ok . My thoughts and prayers are with BT. I know he is having a hard time now. And my prayers are also with Aunt D she and A are going home today. I'm also praying for my grandma that she may find that eternal resting place. So she can see my granpappy again.She can go anytime now.
Love you guys !! Hope to hear from you soon !Catch you later.......

2005-10-13T06:25:00.000-07:00

HNT I think I'll copy my Cuz Cindy today, But I'm calling these bedroom eyes.

Two days in a row!

2005-10-12T00:35:00.000-07:00

Yes I am posting again, instead of waiting a week. It's late and I'm a bit dingy but who cares. I have a sick hubby in the other room so I'm trying to be quiet. He's been in bed since yesterday. He is the type of person that just wants to be left alone when he's sick. So I've learned to leave him alone. It's hard to do because I want to help make him feel better, that's my mommy job.I hope he gets to feeling better soon. I'm bored and I don't have any body to talk to.
Well the weather is changing here and finally starting to feel like fall. I love the fall , Cool crisp days and chilly nights . The leaves are all changing and the air smell different. I just love it. It's cool enough to do stuff outside and it's nice to take long walks just before sunset.Even if sunset is coming way to early. I guess I better just get use to that.I probably love the fall so much because I'm a fall baby , my birthday is Sat. and my anniversary is Sun.
We are having a family get together Sat. It's a birthday party of sorts. We have 3 of us in the family with Oct. Birthdays. It's a good excuse to get together anyhow. We are going to my Aunt Dorthey's farm she down here for a few weeks.It's always fun when we get together.Never a dull moment. My family has a wonderful sense of humor so we keep laughing all the time.I wish more family could be here( Em and Meg) maybe next year we can all figure out how to get together. I can't wait.
Well that's probably all I;ve got for tonight.
So good night sleep tight don't let the bedbugs bit ,If they do pick up a shoe and beat them black and blue. (A Grandma Saying)

I passed!!!!!!

2005-10-10T23:45:00.000-07:00

I finally passed my Real estate course ! It took me 3 weeks . Now I just have to take my state exam and I'll be good to go.I'm a little nervous . Everyone I talk to say they didn't pass it the first time but I'm really going to try . It cost 50 bucks every time you take the test. So I'm still at it I am going to review for another week or so then go take it. Wish me luck.
I'm having a bloggers block. My life has been so consumed with this stuff I find I'm having a hard time coming up with anything good to blog about. So I'll just ramble . I do miss blogging I love the connection I've made with new friends and family.
I am coming up on my 1st year anniversary. It hard to imagine it's been a year already. So much has happened in the last year. We sold a house ,moved,I went back to school , I became a Grandma,Quit doing dope,got a new job,got married and learned how to use a computer. I think it's been a very busy year! And I am so grateful for each and every experience.
I go to the doctor tomorrow, I 've got to get this gallblatter thing taken care of. They tell me it's not that big of a deal. I hope not. And since we have insurance now I'm going to have a bust reduction done. Now that one seems to be a little bit more involved.I don't know if I'm ready for that. But I know it will be good for me I've been packing around 25 pounds of boob for way too long.I know I'll feel better when it's done .But they are a big part of me ( no punn intended)in my younger years they kinda defined who I was. Now not so much now but still.. It's going to be an adjustment.
Anyhow I've rambled on enough it's time to hit the hay. It's good to be back around here again I have missed you guys.

HNT

2005-09-29T11:30:00.000-07:00

With this ring...................................

check this one out

2005-09-27T09:05:00.000-07:00

click hereCheck this Quiz out it's a fun one !It takes a little bit of time. I scored 46.3% I think thats pretty good.This is for all the music buffs out there!

another quizz from Em

2005-09-26T11:30:00.000-07:00

Your Birthdate: October 15

With a birthday on the 15th of any month, you are apt to have really strong attachments to home, family and domestic scene. The 1 and 5 equaling 6, provide the sort of energy that makes you an excellent parent or teacher. You are very responsible and capable.
This is an attractive and an attracting influence. You like harmony in your environment and strive to maintain it. You tend to learn by observation rather than study and research.
You may like to cook, but you probably don't follow recipes. This number shows artistic leanings and would certainly support an talents that may be otherwise in your makeup. You're a very generous and giving person, but perhaps a bit stubborn in ways.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

I'm alive and kickin'

2005-09-16T20:33:00.000-07:00

Well , I know it's been a while since I posted, but I've been real busy. I didn't pass my test and my course ran out. So I've started all over from scratch.I didn't commit myself enough and I took all the time allotted and then some.It's my own fault, So I've totally committed myself to doing this right. No TV, no blogging I spend all my time going through this course. I started a week ago and so far I've done what took me 4 1/2 month to do before.I am really proud of myself . I didn't know I had it in me. And I'm really learning it. I guess I was a little embarrassed after so many of you wished me well. I was also disappointed with myself, but I'm over that I'm back with gusto!!! My husband has been carrying the load and it's time for me to " put on my big panties and deal with it"Besides there is too much money out there to be made and I want some of it. We really can't commit to buying the house until I start bringing in an income.We have dreams together and I want to start helping make them come true.Thanks for your support I really do need it. And know that there are a few of you out there that have really touched my heart don't give up on me .I'm not done yet I've only just begun!! I,m still peaking in on you and trying keep up with what's going on in your lives even when I don't take time to tell you.
It's time for me to go even though it's not a school night I need to get to bed.Later

2005-09-08T07:49:00.000-07:00

HNT....my babies and my chubby knees

2005-09-07T06:33:00.000-07:00

Christain's got his own pony.

2005-09-07T06:28:00.000-07:00

Great-grandma and christain.......I could only hope to look so good when I become a Great-grandma....

Unexpected trip

2005-09-06T10:30:00.000-07:00

I made an unexpected trip to the emergency room. I apparently have Gallstones. I had 2 attacks about an hour apart. It was the worst pain I've ever had in my life I would rather give birth to twins than go through that again.I do have to have surgery but we are going to try to hold out till our insurance kicks in Oct. So I get to eat bland food no fried foods and no fatty foods yeeehaw!I guess this is one of the joys of getting old and fat.I can work on the fat but the age thing keeps kicking me in the butt.
I'm still studying I'll be testing wed. wish me luck.

2005-09-01T00:32:00.000-07:00

HNT I couldn't miss this week. I won't be able to comment on anyone pictures today but I will check them out this weekend.

It's time to put on my big girl panties and deal with it.

2005-08-31T01:29:00.000-07:00

That's my new saying I picked up in Galviston. And it is definently appropriate. I'm really having to kick it in gear. I'm studing till my eyes cross.I am aware that there are hurricanes and wars and babies being born.But I can't take time to morn or rejoice. I feel terrilbe about it but... I'm gonna put on my big panties and deal with it.I may not be posting much till I get this stuff done. I feel myself getting smarter by the min.lol. Untill later hug hug kiss kiss.

Tagged by Addict

2005-08-29T11:10:00.000-07:00

7 Things I plan to do before I die.
1. Buy a house.
2.Quit smoking .
3. Own my own bussiness.
4.Travel with my husband.
5. Know that my family knows how special they are to me.
6.Own a new car.
7.Forgive myself and others for wrongs done.

7 things I can do.
1. Make people smile.
2. Ride a motorcycle.
3. Read a map.
4.Read a book and watch tv at the same time.
5. Study.
6.Take knots out of most anything.
7.Let people feel loved.

7 things I can't do.
1. Work on a car.
2.Eat peas.
3. Be mean to animals or children.
4. Eat without getting food on my shirt.
5. Watch a Girly Movie without crying.
6.Think about my children and grandbaby without smiling.
7. Live without drugs without the Love of my higher power and support of my husband and family.

7 things that attractme to the opposite sex.
1. A good sence of humor.
2. A nice smile.
3. Someone who will look me in the eyes.
4. Confidence.
5. Big strong arms.
6.A nice butt.
7.Kindness.

7 things I say the most.
1. Ummmm ?
2. Ok.
3. Oooooops!
4.Honey can you ...
5. Honey can I......
6. Come here come here come here.
7. NO no no!!!!

7 celebrity crushes.
1. George Cloony.
2.Elvis.
3.Keffer Southerland.
4.James Bond (all of them)
5.Harrison Ford.
6. Cher.(I always wanted to be her!)
7. Chris Drwartay! (blues singer.)

Ok there you go. That was fun.....

What a trip !

2005-08-27T14:40:00.000-07:00

I'm home and boy does it feel good.I had a wonderful trip. But it sure is good to back. I missed my hubby and my doggies. I came home to a clean house that was nice. My hubby was all snuggled up in bed (waiting for his sweetie) and my doggies were very excited to see mom .We left Corpius about 6:30 in the morning and pulled in to the house at 11:00 at night. We drove over 900 miles.We were going to do it in 2 days going back to Galviston and up thru Louisiana, But we got in the car to and I looked at mom and said I just want to go home she said you got the map lets go.Anyhow it's taken 2 days to recoop I don't think I even got out of my jammies yesterday.
It was so wonderful seeing the kids and the baby. I forgot how sweet babies smell and the way they feel in your arms.And the kids are such good parents. They are doing a great job.It hit me when we went out to dinner and my son was holding Christain .I looked over at him and just started crying.I think I was crying for the child I used to have and for the Adult he is becoming they have so much ahead of them .Life seems so uncertain.But I know they an deal with it.I just don't know if I can protect them from all that is in store for them.I think I felt as helpless as the day he was born.Oh well I get so sentimental....
Galviston was cool my mom and I had a good time .I think Mom and I needed the bonding time I learned things about her I never knew . I think that is funny because I thought I knew just agout everything about her.It was really a time to remember.
Now it's time for me to get back into the studying mode I have a lot of reviewing to do to take my test. It's time to move forward.

2005-08-27T11:10:00.000-07:00

4 Generations

2005-08-27T10:45:00.000-07:00

Mommy Daddy and Baby

2005-08-27T10:40:00.000-07:00

Christain talking to his Gammy telling her how much he loves her.

2005-08-27T10:21:00.000-07:00

The most perfect baby in the world!!!!!!!!!

Texas is Great !!!!

2005-08-25T15:50:00.000-07:00

I'm still in Tx. And having a blast ! My grandson is the most beautifull baby!! He's just the sweetest thing you ever saw. My cousin Emily was right ! If I know being a grandma was going to be so much fun I would have had grandkids first.
Mom and I had a great time in Galvaston and we are going to go back through there to go home. We are taking a differant route home. So It will be fun.
This is our last night with the kids, we are going to stay in and watch chick flicks and play with the baby !
So I'll close for now. Pictures and details later!!!!!!

Sat .Evening Post

2005-08-20T16:35:00.000-07:00

Well It's Sat. night and I'm not even packed yet I'm still getting the housework and homework done. I'm leaving Mon. with my Mom to go see the kids and the grandbaby. I haven't been on a roadtrip for a longtime and I've never been to Tx. So I am very excited.
This will be the first time away from my hubby too. He plans on working a lot of overtime while I'm gone.I still feel like I'm behind on my homework. I'll just have to keep at it There is a lot to do on the computer but I've got a lot to read in my book too . I just hope I have time .
Well my friends I'll probly post again before I leave I'm gonna miss you all too.Catch you later.

2005-08-18T06:40:00.000-07:00

HNT Help fight poverty.........

QUACK QUACK

2005-08-17T09:36:00.000-07:00

I'm turning into a duck. It is still raining I love it.Things are turning green again and it's knocking down the pollen.It feels pretty good right now but when the sun comes out it gets really muggy. Oh well that's the price you pay.
Thing are going pretty good , I'm really having to cram for my test right noe I have till the 3rd of next month to finish this course. I feel a little overwhelmed sommetimes. My memory retention is'nt what it used to be. Hell who am I kidding I never had a very good memory . I think that comes from living thru the 60's 70's 80' and 90's.I feel like I have to work really hard to remember my name somer days.So wish me luck!!!!
I want to send out a big hug to my Aunt margie who has supported me in many ways from driving me around till I get my license to the moral supprt she give me everyday. I know things are discouraging at times just try to sit back and count your blessing and know that I love you and appreciate everything you do.This might just be Gods way of saying it's time to sit back and smell the roses.And btw have you smacked your roses lately?Those of you that know my Aunt can ask her about that story.
I hope everyone is having a good hump day and the rest of the week flies by.Peace baby......

Past life

2005-08-15T10:40:00.000-07:00

I must have been a used car salesman in a past life, because I have such bad car karma.I am nortorius for having bad luck with cars. For the few months it seems like one vehicale or another breaks down every week. My husband is very frustrated he got his boss to buy 2 used vans from dad and we bought 1 it's been a pain in the ass ever since. I think I'll buy a pony and turn myself into a cowgirl. I always did have a Miss Kitty fantasy.
Anyhow happy mon.everyone !! Watch what you pray for cause you just might get it. I 've been praying for rain. And the other day I said I'd like it to rain for a week. Well it started yesterday and it's not suppose to let up for a couple more days.Hee heee.I know we need it so I'm happy. I just don't want to float away!!!!

Heather where are you???????

2005-08-15T08:47:00.000-07:00

Just a note to Heather from Iowa. We miss you. What's up? I know your still reading our blogs so let me know what's up.
People may think it's strange to call someone a friend whom you've never meet. But I think it's just that we never met. I still think of many of my fellow bloggers as friends. There are differant degrees of friendship with a wide range. I hope you understand what I'm saying and I hope to hear from you soon.

TGIF

2005-08-12T22:17:00.000-07:00

I am so glad this week is over!!! I'm not use to working everyday.And like I said in a previous post my coworkers have been wearing me out . I've been playing diplomat all week. People can really let the little thing get to them. I know my day will come but it's only a job.At this point in my life I don't let my job run my life . Oh well anyhow I hope I don't get like that.If I start bitchin' about work to much SOMEBODY STOP ME!!!!!!!!!!
I'm still planning my trip we are leaving here Tuesday morning and staying in the Dallas area Tuesday night.then going on to Portland wed just can't wait. I want to hold that grandbaby of mine!!!!And kiss my baby's face.And thank my daughter inlaw for bringing Christian into our lives.
I am really tired but I'm going to leave you all with another poem.I wrote this for my Grandmother. This poem is untitled.

We enter this world so small and frail and helpless.
Totally unaware of what's beyond our limited sight.
Knowing only we're hungry , lonely and scared.
Our lives placed into the hands of someone we hardly know.
But thru the warmth of their touch their love they show.

And so our life's journey begins with all it's twists and turns.
Filled with all our hopes and dreams we wander through this life.
And as we slow towards the end and come around the final bend.
We find that we have returned to were it all began.

We exit this world so small and frail and helpless.
Totally unaware of what's beyond our limited sight.
Knowing only we're hungry lonely and scared.
Our lives placed into the hands of someone we hardly know.
But thru the warmth of their touch their love they show.

I never gave this to my Grandma I don't think I ever will. I don't know why I felt like sharing this tonight but I did.Maybe it's one new life beginning and another old life will soon be ending . Who knows like I said I'm sleepy I think it's time for bed . Nite-nite.

2005-08-11T06:19:00.000-07:00

HNT this is my pain in the back..... But it is getting better.

I'm so excited!!!

2005-08-10T07:33:00.000-07:00

I just can't wait , I'm going to TX in 2 weeks to see my kids and my new grandbaby Christain.My mom and I are going for a short visit.I just can't wait. I'm working extra days so I'll have some spending money to blow on the kids and baby.
Mom and I haven't been on a road trip for a while so this ought to be fun. I hope it is anyhow my Mom bless her heart has had to do a lot of roadtrips lately.And they have been really stressful so I planning on making this one as much fun as possible.
I'll tell ya working extra days is something else. I usually only work 2 days a week so now that I'm working more days and I'm getting closer to taking my test the girls at work are coming to me more and more. The problem is they are coming to me with personal problems and problems they have with each other.I'm the happy go lucky one of the bunch and I don't talk bad about anyone so I feel like they want to pull me into "their side" and I just won't go there.I usually end up sharing things that are positive about the other person and try to get them to be a little more compassionate as they get treated with the same compassion when they are wiggin' out.So far so good.Well I better go and get ready for work, see ya!

2005-08-10T05:57:00.000-07:00

Me and my Mom, my best friend and road tripper!!!!

Sunday morning

2005-08-07T10:23:00.000-07:00

Ok I've been very lazy about about posting, there has been something bugging me lately.And it's something I haven't wanted to write about . But I believe it is time.
I have been having terrilbe drug dreams , I have always been a dreamer , very vivid real dreams . I can wake myself up but I haven't been able to shake these dreams. In them I see the drugs I'm doing the drugs I'm also doing things to hide them or to get more ect.... I really hate it .I wake up pissed off because the demon I've been fighting for so long invades my peace.I don't like the way it makes me feel.
I wrote this poem back in 95 sitting in jail on my way to prison.Yes it took me all the way there. I went in for 10 months in a (at the time )new drug treatment program. It didn't work but it added to my life experience.

Meth
Meth is my name getting high is my game,
Do you want to play?
Oh you don't know the rules?
Well I will teach you and you will learn well.
Is all you have to do is indulge me a little longer
so I can take away everything that is good
and then one day
as your staring out there with tear stained eyes
you will see my face and know that I am hate
but you won't care
because is all you left
are quick little flashes of life's little clashes
and you !
You poor fool will think it was all fate!

So now you see the demon that haunts me...
Sometimes I'm ashamed that I let sometime take me so far. The stigma that dopers are weak stupid people low class ect.. ect.. is just not true I've seen it take down Docter, Teachers, Grandmother , policeman it has no prejudices. It will take anyone who thinks they want to play.

2005-08-04T09:32:00.000-07:00

Ok it's HNT this was my first HNT picture and since I'm still slowly getting around I didn't do a picture this week so.. I thought I'd go back and post this one again. TOEJAMM SANDWICH........

I'm kinda back!

2005-08-01T07:30:00.000-07:00

Well it's been a long week . I'm feeling much better but I still have a ways to go.Back stuff is not fun.And it's not like I really did anything to hurt it I was just bending over to pick something up.And whammo out she goes. I'm and seeing a really good Doc. (it doesn't hurt that he's really goodlooking either) He is a wholelistic healer and nutritionist he is great!
Anyhow I'm getting ready to go see him today and I'll post more later!!!

2005-07-28T04:45:00.000-07:00

HNT .. Hubby's workin' man feet. I'll be back next week.

Ooooops

2005-07-27T12:27:00.000-07:00

Hey guys I had a little accident and injured my back.I'll be down for a few days but I'll be back. Bedrest, then start taking it slow . I'll post again soon.

Just another quiz

2005-07-25T12:14:00.000-07:00

2005-07-24T10:35:00.000-07:00

This is Missy she seems to think she is one of the puppies except she can climb trees.

2005-07-24T10:33:00.000-07:00

Peekaboo.....This is Sarg. He is 3 whole pounds and full of personality.

2005-07-23T12:39:00.000-07:00

This is what life is all about........Grandson and daughter-inlaw.

2005-07-23T12:00:00.000-07:00

This is Holly our new little girl isn't she sweet!!!

It's Friday fun day

2005-07-22T11:46:00.000-07:00

It's Friday yea!!!!!!!! This is the day I wait for all week long. Not that I have any big plans this weekend . I never do it's just nice to be at home. I have a lot of homework to finish up and reviewing I'm going for my test in a couple of weeks. The real estate office I work at are ready for me to be licensed. And I'm ready to start making money.
Well I added a new puppy to the household. She is the most beautiful little yorkie. She is only 2 weeks older than my male they were almost like littermates . Last night was her first night at the house , she has been at the kennel up to now .So it's fun having 2 puppies and a kitten around the house it's a constant form of entertainment. I'll be taking pictures this weekend.
Well the other big thing in our lives right now is we went to the lenders this week and started paperwork on a loan to buy the cabin. We were preaproved so now it's paperwork and seeing how the place appraises.It's very exciting and scary at the same time. I've never owned a house before.And with it being my dream house to top it all off. I can't imagine living anywhere else.I just pray that it all goes smoothly.
So many people I know are having a rough time my heart goes out to them all. I wish I could share the peace I have found and the joy I have in my heart.Thru all the turmoil and heatache I created in my life I have finally come to a place that is good. And I feel this has come from living my life in a manner that harms none.Simplicity...... that's how I manage things in my life today. Keeping it all simple.Asking the question am I harming anyone with my actions? And what is the simplest way to deal with things.And try to keep my needs as simple as possible . I feel a freedom I never felt before .
Peace and love I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

2005-07-21T04:59:00.000-07:00

HNT MY shadow is all nekkid but don't tell anybody.

Good morning

2005-07-20T07:11:00.000-07:00

Today is one of those days that the words won't come. Maybe I'm not awake yet.So I'm going to give you my favorite poem from my childhood.

If I can stop one heart from breaking
I shall not live in vain
If I can ease one life from aching
or cool one pain
or help one fainting robin
unto it's nest again
I shall not live in vain.
Emily Dickinson.
I think this says a lot.
Nakutakia siku njma, zenye furaha na kila anina ya matumaini. Have a wonderful and fulfilling day full of joy and happiness. Swahili.I have made a new friend that is sharing his lanuage with me.

Sunday night-Cool breeze

2005-07-17T21:55:00.000-07:00

Ahhhhh ! It's finally cooled off there is a nice breeze, the fireflies are out and the moon is fairly close to being full.
I just got done pickin' green beans I love them raw fresh out of the garden.I love the smell of dirt. I could get by without the mosquitos.
Today was a lazy hot day. I waited till this evening to do my outdoor chores.I really wish we'd get some rain.
As I was gathering up my things and getting ready to come in the house I remembered a song we used to sing in a round it was from a womans gathering years ago.

When the day is over and all the work is done
we'll fly away home
when the day is over and all the work is done
we'll fly away home
fly away home to dreamland
fly away home
fly away home to dreamland
fly away home

It sounds very pretty with many women singing. It was a comforting moment remembering the joy I shared.I was about 28 years old when I found a group that celebrated being a woman . They taught me how to trust , how to be a sister and a friend. They showed me many things , the one greatest thing of all they showed me was ME. I got to look inside and there I found a beautiful child with big brown eyes and joyful smile. She told me it was ok to play and laugh and sing and dance and run around in circles till I was dizzy.Today I allow my child space to be free and to grow.
So now I am going to sing her my lullaby and tuck her in bed so she can dream..........

Sat morning

2005-07-16T09:44:00.000-07:00

Me? listening to Eve Cassidy and Nora Jones , drinking Strong coffee w/ carmel vanilla creamer ,smokin' way too much ,cut off sweatpants ,my hubbies rudedog tank top black bra....
I overslept a little bit so I was late getting up to the kennel to help my Aunt with the dogs.I'm learning how the groom the dogs. They are wiley little fellas trying to cut their little nails isn't as easy as you might think!But I do love it . They each have such different personalities.We have Yorkies in case you didn't know. They are so sweet. And the puppies we have that are almost ready to go are sooo sweet .I told my Aunt I wanted a puppy blanket they are so soft and cuddly.
Well My Aunt has here own blog now.We set it up yesterday http://www.kissyfacemargie.blogspot.com/ stop by and give her some words of encourargment.I think she is really going to enjoy it.
I'm gong to just hang out today I have a lot of yardwork and housework and homework to do today. Maybe I'll make it to the creek today. If we don't get some rain we maynot have much of a creek left it's getting kind of low.
I have some herbs ready to dry does anyone have any hints for drying dill I pulled some and hung it upsidedown to dry and it tuned an ugly brown
I thought it would have some green color left to it.?????
We got a new kitty yesterday to add to the family . Her name is Little Missy , she is grey and was covered with fleas.I found her outside the office , someone had dumped her , she was panting so hard it was really hot outside so I gave her some water and that was all it took she adopted me on the spot She is soo sweet and I am such a sucker. It didn't take too much for Allen to cave in either.Hee hee.Big macho guy turns into butter with one little meow!
That all for now .I hope everyone has a good time this weekend.

Interview with Mary Pat

2005-07-15T01:50:00.000-07:00

HNT.... Creekin'

2005-07-14T12:14:00.000-07:00

We always have a good time down on the creek.This is a little more than Half but oh well.

Boredom

2005-07-12T08:35:00.000-07:00

Good morning, I'm sitting here drinking my first cup of coffee trying to come up with something to write about and not finding much. My life is has slowed down so much I fear it might even be boring. I have never been accused of being boring.I use to surround myself with people and activity.Constantly on the run.In the middle of some drama or another.Taking on way to much and spreading myself way to thin.Now it's just the opposite .I don't really miss the drama but I do miss being involed in stuff.I don't have very many friends around here and I haven't been driving for a while. I live in the country so I don't get around much and now I'm starting to get that itch.Maybe because I getting my license back soon.
Boredom can be dangerous for me. When I was doing drugs I was never bored and I had lots of friends . Well as long as there were drugs there were friends. And keeping up drug habit kept a person busy.So I guess I'm just trying to identify why I'm feeling buggy.I really had no idea when I started out writting where this would go but here it is. I'm coming up on a year without Meth and that's what is making me feel weird. I think I need to meet some people and do something to keep myself out of trouble.I haven't been to any meetings around here so I guess that might be a place to start.
I normally don't share much on this subject but I felt the need to try and figure out why I was feeling the way I do.Sometimes I think if I don't talk about it it will go away or it doesn't exist . Not true .I have to remind myself were I came from and remember I don't want to go back there.
So now that I know why I'm feeling this way I can do something about it. Thanks for your support.

Interview ?'s for Hatleyman

2005-07-10T10:35:00.000-07:00

Ok same rules. It's a little harder since your new to my blog but here we go.

1. I know your a father of 2 so tell us about the first time you looked at each child.What you thought or felt.
2. How has being a Dad changed you ?
3.What was the scariest or strangest thing you've ever done?
4. List 10 single word things to describe yourself.
5. If you were President what be the first thing you'd do?
Once again I hope you like the ?'s and have fun.

Interview ?'s for Heather

2005-07-10T10:17:00.000-07:00

Ok you know the rules from my last post , so here goes.
1. Are you a romantic ? If so tell me a romantic story.
2. If you could change anything in your life right now ,what would it be?
3. How many animal friends do you have in your home? names and brief history please.
4. What where you like growing up and did you ever do anything your parents never found out about?
5. If you could come back in another life who would you want to be ?

I hope these are good questions and I hope you have as much fun with it as we have.

Interview

2005-07-08T14:30:00.000-07:00

Everyone knows the rules:1. Leave a comment saying "interview me"
2. I will respond by asking you 5 questions.
3.You will update your blog with the questions and your answers.
4.You will include this explanation and offer to interview some else in same post.
5.When others comment asking to be interviewed you ask them 5 questions.

I am finally answering the questions someone dear to me asked over a week or 2 ago. Sorry I have been negligent and lazy .These were very good questions.
Interview questions;
1. What is the weirdest thing you have ever eaten?
I like raw carrots with yellow mustard. Peanutbutter , honey, butter and potatochip sandwiches.Oh yea I tried rattlesnake one time.
2.List 10 single words that describes you.
eclectic, humorous, bubbly, pretty, boisterous, smart, loyal, concienious,spiritual and flity.Whewww that was harder than it looks.
3. Name 10 things you really, really like, must be non living things.
creekin' , music , reading , motorcycles , money, yard sales , road trips , massages, good sex ,and walking in the woods.
4. How do you think being a grandmother will change you.
Hmmm, I'm not sure yet. I'm sure it will change me in ways I would never even think of and yet I don't see myself making any changes anytime soon. Maybe in the way I look at my children they aren't kids anymore. But they are still my babies. Does than make sence? I know all you Grandparents are laughing at me right now .I guess I'll find out as I go.
5. If you could choose now, who do you think you would like to come back in another life and be and why?
Now this one is a good one ,I have really thought about this for a long time. Would I want to be rich? Famous?Maybe.But I think I would want to be someone who has made an impact on a nothers life. Maybe a spiritual leader like the Mother Teresa or Gaundi.Then I thought who made an impact on my life. And not until I sat here writting did it come to me. Mr. Nebble, my 5th grade teacher.He came into my life when things where very scary for me .My Mom was getting a divorce and all of the men in my life up to that point (except my grandpappy) had hurt me in many different ways. I was acting out a lot and trying to get in trouble. See Mr. Nebble gave swats and at one point or another everyone got one. But he was very gentle and patient with me. He taught me to trust and no matter how bad I tried to be , he accepted me for who I was. And he wasn't going to let me feel like I was bad.Thank you Mr. Nebble . This is who I would like to come back as.
Thank you for asking these questions they were good made me think a lot and helped me to remember some things.