hippigirl

Fun loving hippigirl, I enjoy country living, flea markets,reading , motocycles, woodworking ,puppies , family, Full moons .I'm 41 yrs old and almost a grandma.I am married to a great guy who lets me be me.

Monday, October 30, 2006

Taking a moment to catch up.

Well, I have been very neglectfull in keeping up with my blog. At one time I couldn't wait to get to my computer and post on my blog and check out all my favorite people. I miss my blog friends and it's my own fault. So I'm going to try to do better.
My life got real crazy for a while this summer with almost losing my son , Mom having cancer , my Aunt having by-pass surgery trying to start career ,my husband who is working himself to death, taking care of a home ,having my son move back home and trying to find time to take a bath.I'm really not trying to whine or seek symphathy.I'm just wondering why I'm not in a nut house by now.With all this stuff going on I got to experiance many wonderful things.My son coming back from the dead and learning how to do everything over again was like having a child and watching him grow up in a matter of months, from his first goofy smile ,to his first steps ,to going to bathroom ,to reading and writing, to making his bed ,to girls, and to starting a whole life over again.
Mending years of hurt feelings and anger between my ex-inlaws and establishing a relationship of caring and respect.
Watching my Mom go thru cancer treatment was hell ,But realizing I come from a strong and amazing woman and hoping I will someday be half the woman she is.
Watching life slowly come back into a woman who's body was falling apart but her heart would never give up.And knowing how much I'm going to miss her when she moves.Even if it is only 15 miles away.I won't be able to look out my front door and see my uncle working in the yard and my aunt cooking something good to eat.
I've learned to appricate the man I love even when he's not very lovable.He works so hard . I hope to be able to bear some of the burden and give him a break.
I'm working hard at something I never thought I could.I am learning to be good a something new.
I am also being the Mom I should have been 18 years ago and it makes me feel good about what I am adding to his life.

So All in all you have to take the good with the bad.And it is so true that behind every bad thing in our lives there is something good.
My new saying that got me thru this time was"Expect nothing but have faith in everything"