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Just another day

man this month is just flying by . Where does the time go. I've been keeping very busy. I'm looking for a part time job. The real estate is going ok But we are trying to buy a house and the holidays are coming so I've got to do what I've got to do.
Tony started his own blog yesterday check it out http://wakingupfromacoma.blogspot.com/ I'm very proud of him.
I've got to go It's my day off and I've got more to do than I would if I were working.

Taking a moment to catch up.

Well, I have been very neglectfull in keeping up with my blog. At one time I couldn't wait to get to my computer and post on my blog and check out all my favorite people. I miss my blog friends and it's my own fault. So I'm going to try to do better.
My life got real crazy for a while this summer with almost losing my son , Mom having cancer , my Aunt having by-pass surgery trying to start career ,my husband who is working himself to death, taking care of a home ,having my son move back home and trying to find time to take a bath.I'm really not trying to whine or seek symphathy.I'm just wondering why I'm not in a nut house by now.With all this stuff going on I got to experiance many wonderful things.My son coming back from the dead and learning how to do everything over again was like having a child and watching him grow up in a matter of months, from his first goofy smile ,to his first steps ,to going to bathroom ,to reading and writing, to making his bed ,to girls, and to starting a whole life over again.
Mending years of hurt feelings and anger between my ex-inlaws and establishing a relationship of caring and respect.
Watching my Mom go thru cancer treatment was hell ,But realizing I come from a strong and amazing woman and hoping I will someday be half the woman she is.
Watching life slowly come back into a woman who's body was falling apart but her heart would never give up.And knowing how much I'm going to miss her when she moves.Even if it is only 15 miles away.I won't be able to look out my front door and see my uncle working in the yard and my aunt cooking something good to eat.
I've learned to appricate the man I love even when he's not very lovable.He works so hard . I hope to be able to bear some of the burden and give him a break.
I'm working hard at something I never thought I could.I am learning to be good a something new.
I am also being the Mom I should have been 18 years ago and it makes me feel good about what I am adding to his life.

So All in all you have to take the good with the bad.And it is so true that behind every bad thing in our lives there is something good.
My new saying that got me thru this time was"Expect nothing but have faith in everything"

I Believe in Miracles

Last Sat. I got a call from one of my youngest sons "friends" . "Mamma Sandi Tony was partin' last night and passed out about 3 am and we can't get himto wake up, I think you should get here ". This was the next night he had been out for a long time. I got there and sure enough I couldn't wake him either. So I took him the hospital, he quit breathing as the nurses where wheeling him into the ER. They had to put him on the ventilator. He didn'tstart coming around for days. We watched and prayed and asked everyone we knew to pray. The Doctors told us there wasn't much hope , that even if he did wake up he would be a vegetable he had major brain trauma ,damage to the heart ,liver and he suffered a stroke that would leave his right side useless.Well Fri. he started coming around slowly. I got a little glimmer of hope!At about 3 pm the nurse called for me to come back to his room. There sat my son with all the support systems gone and he is smiling at me And he recognized me. By the end of the night I was receiving little kisses from my boy.As of Sat. he was moving both arms and legs and was talking in complete sentences.I finally came home to rest . I am looking forward to going back to the hospital and seeing his bright blues eyes today. I know if it wasn't for the prayers and love that was sent out for that boy I would never have been able to those beautiful eyes smile back to me!I truly witnessed a miracle.And I thank God for that.Please keep him in your prayers THEY ARE WORKING. We still have a long road ahead of us but I am comforted in knowing we are not walking alone.

The big C

How do you talk about something so terrifying you can't hardly say the word??? A close member of my family is facing it now. My mom, the strongest woman I know is facing our worst fears. I hear a tenor in her voice as the fear seep thru, I see the anxiety taking it's toll. And I feel helpless.